I'm wore out you know.....been wrestling with You for too long and last nite watching E wrestling w/her Daddy, I just AGAIN saw the futility of a child wrestling w/her Daddy. ....Him so lovingly allowing her to jump on him and as soon as she started to lose she paniced.......and wanted to stop and he would just lovingly back away. She's young and I'm older.....but like a child I think I wrestle w/You. You never pin me down ......but I'm tired and just want to crawl up in Your lap and then I know what to do....... and I'm gonna do it.....
This weekend attacking Good Sense....fearful and yet I can so hear You say 'it's time'...time for us to give this piece of life to You....I can read about the Israelites and laugh or 'judge' that it took them 40 years to figure out how to follow You out of the desert.... Well I can see that Dan and I have been stumbling through the financial desert for 28 years and I don't want to do it another 12 so we BOTH know this is the time for us to really look at where we are so we can plan where and what to do next....plan and follow where YOU lead.
Before we didn't have a plan, scrambling always scrambling...scrambling so much that following just wasn't an option. So all this to say I have a better understanding of the Israelites now.....and the goodness of God in taking care of them and US as we've scrambled and wrestled and fallen and failed .....what a God you know??
Zech 7: 8 And the word of the LORD came again to Zechariah: 9 "This is what the LORD Almighty says: 'Administer true justice; show mercy and compassion to one another. 10 Do not oppress the widow or the fatherless, the alien or the poor. In your hearts do not think evil of each other.'
11 "But they refused to pay attention; stubbornly they turned their backs and stopped up their ears. 12 They made their hearts as hard as flint and would not listen to the law or to the words that the LORD Almighty had sent by his Spirit through the earlier prophets. So the LORD Almighty was very angry.
13 " 'When I called, they did not listen; so when they called, I would not listen,' says the LORD Almighty. 14 'I scattered them with a whirlwind among all the nations, where they were strangers. The land was left so desolate behind them that no one could come or go. This is how they made the pleasant land desolate.' "
I don't want my wrestling with you to be misinterpreted...I hear you alright and I want to do what You say, You desire and I don't want to harden my heart against it any longer........I know this is OT but THIS IS THE SAME GOD right?? My faith in Christ doesn't make it so I don't have to listen to YOU.....my faith in Christ allows me to hear YOU and that is a huge blessing.
This one .....makes me anxious for those who don't know you.....makes me anxious...
Luke 13 22Then Jesus went through the towns and villages, teaching as he made his way to Jerusalem. 23Someone asked him, "Lord, are only a few people going to be saved?"
He said to them, 24"Make every effort to enter through the narrow door, because many, I tell you, will try to enter and will not be able to. 25Once the owner of the house gets up and closes the door, you will stand outside knocking and pleading, 'Sir, open the door for us.' "But he will answer, 'I don't know you or where you come from.'
26"Then you will say, 'We ate and drank with you, and you taught in our streets.'
27"But he will reply, 'I don't know you or where you come from. Away from me, all you evildoers!'
28"There will be weeping there, and gnashing of teeth, when you see Abraham, Isaac and Jacob and all the prophets in the kingdom of God, but you yourselves thrown out. 29People will come from east and west and north and south, and will take their places at the feast in the kingdom of God. 30Indeed there are those who are last who will be first, and first who will be last."
......the anxiousness.....Live focused on YOU and YOU WILL TAKE CARE OF IT...be ready when You say and get to the business of FOLLOWING!!!!