Christmas….I love it…..and yet right now the battle begins. The one inside me about NOT having enough money to spend and then I read ….. and I am struck by...... maybe it will always BE a BATTLE and one I am supposed to fight….?
I make everything a battle don’t I?
I go to my cemetery and argue with God about everything and I love that I can and yet maybe I am supposed to NOT be so much….a fighter?? Me who hates(d) conflict. Me who just wants everyone to get along….which is maybe nothing more than part of the whole omni (my thinking I am omniscient and omnipotent)…..thing I have been fighting. My thinking I know so much when in all reality I don’t know CRAP!!
I have also been pondering ChildISHNESS versus being Child LIKE…..is it childish to always think everything is a battle or is it a childlike spirit??
I approach Christmas childishly?? Making everything about the gifts?
A childlike wonder about the holidays would be…..seeing all of it with WONDER. Seeing all of it excited and ….and what??
My Grandchildren don’t care what I get them…they just want to GET something. They will be struck by the beauty of the gifts in the wrapping more than what’s inside the box?? Is that right?? How can I be more CHILD LIKE and less CHILDISH this Christmas???