Wednesday, November 09, 2005

Job 34; 1 Corinthians 4-6

Jesus and not ___________
Jesus and not ___________
Jesus and not ___________
Jesus and not ___________
Jesus and not even ___________
I have to HAVE TO HAVE TO foc us on You....Jesus.

But God can I just say....I really NEED You to empower me w/some kind of wisdom so I can stop just being passionate without substance...can you at least allow me the ability to articulate what it is YOU have done in my life....I am scared that I will live forever w/this vision and no way to facilitate any of it...what now Father....what now??

1 Corinthians 4: 1So then, men ought to regard us as servants of Christ and as those entrusted with the secret things of God. 2 Now it is required that those who have been given a trust must prove faithful. 3 I care very little if I am judged by you or by any human court; indeed, I do not even judge myself. 4 My conscience is clear, but that does not make me innocent. It is the Lord who judges me. 5Therefore judge nothing before the appointed time; wait till the Lord comes. He will bring to light what is hidden in darkness and will expose the motives of men's hearts. At that time each will receive his praise from God. '
6 Now, brothers, I have applied these things to myself and Apollos for your benefit, so that you may learn from us the meaning of the saying, "Do not go beyond what is written." Then you will not take pride in one man over against another. 7 For who makes you different from anyone else? What do you have that you did not receive? And if you did receive it, why do you boast as though you did not?
8 Already you have all you want! Already you have become rich! You have become kings—and that without us! How I wish that you really had become kings so that we might be kings with you! 9For it seems to me that God has put us apostles on display at the end of the procession, like men condemned to die in the arena. We have been made a spectacle to the whole universe, to angels as well as to men. 10 We are fools for Christ, but you are so wise in Christ! We are weak, but you are strong! You are honored, we are dishonored!

I am not sure what all that is or means but it speaks to my soul this morning.... servants of Christ ....confirmation servanthood is NOT people pleasing....
must prove faithful...this realization of NOT being a finisher. Just that, a realization and YOU will help me become one??? ...if I don't continue to shy away from looking at it.....and if I focus on YOU and not whatever else that continues to draw my focus away from YOU, from finishing , from what You want to do in and around me for YOUR glory.....I just need to be faithful.....
3 I care very little if I am judged by you or by any human court;..I care too much... again, only focused on You will this part of me be scrubbed away??? I care too much.
8 Already you have all you want! Already you have become rich!...I am rich....I do have all that I want, that's why I pray for all of this Father...isn't it....is it...I want to so badly live giving it away.....praying for wisdom in order to 'tell' my story......wanting to......and there it is again...WANTING......
We are fools for Christ,...I am.....why then do I pray for WISDOM??

There is so much I want to rant and rave against.....but maybe that's my problem....always wrestling....always ranting and raving....why can't I just today.....rest in LISTENING and knowing I am HEARING You.....

4 comments:

Bruce said...

Be still and KNOW that I am God. Sometimes. Sometimes. But not often enough.

Thanks for the comment on my blog. I appreciated the words.

B~

Barbara said...

"Better is one day in your courts
than a thousand elsewhere"


Psalm 84 says

1 How lovely is your dwelling place,
O LORD Almighty!

2 My soul yearns, even faints,
for the courts of the LORD;
my heart and my flesh cry out
for the living God.

3 Even the sparrow has found a home,
and the swallow a nest for herself,
where she may have her young—
a place near your altar,
O LORD Almighty, my King and my God.

4 Blessed are those who dwell in your house;
they are ever praising you.
Selah

5 Blessed are those whose strength is in you,
who have set their hearts on pilgrimage.

6 As they pass through the Valley of Baca,
they make it a place of springs;
the autumn rains also cover it with pools. [b]

7 They go from strength to strength,
till each appears before God in Zion.

8 Hear my prayer, O LORD God Almighty;
listen to me, O God of Jacob.
Selah

9 Look upon our shield, [c] O God;
look with favor on your anointed one.

10 Better is one day in your courts
than a thousand elsewhere;
I would rather be a doorkeeper in the house of my God
than dwell in the tents of the wicked.

11 For the LORD God is a sun and shield;
the LORD bestows favor and honor;
no good thing does he withhold
from those whose walk is blameless.

12 O LORD Almighty,
blessed is the man who trusts in you.

So I Go said...

maybe you find your rest in the wrestling?

or, if not, then i say.. give yourself permission to leave it be for a while.. take a vacation and just breathe in His presence

i'll mix you up a frosty margarita and you can just chill.

peace, my friend.

Melissa said...

But God can I just say....I really NEED You to empower me w/some kind of wisdom so I can stop just being passionate without substance...can you at least allow me the ability to articulate what it is YOU have done in my life....I am scared that I will live forever w/this vision and no way to facilitate any of it...what now Father....what now??

What struck me about this was being passionate without substance. I'm so the poster child for this..."I am scared that I will live forever w/ this vision and no way to facilitate any of it...what now Father...what now??"...How my soul screams the same thing!

My pastor always says that you can't have God and something else...doesn't work that way. How often I take that compromise!