I see the white flag on my desktop and I feel in my heart the pull to surrender, I hear in my head the hymn...I surrender all....why then do I fight?? I don't think I believe that if I do... there is anything left .......that I will just be.....left broken and weeping on the floor.....lack of faith keeps me from surrendering all and then this comes and convicts me and yet encourages me all over again:
AW Tozer for 2/9/06
"Faith says: Anything He did anywhere else He will do here; anything He did any other time He is willing to do now; anything He ever did for other people He is willing to do for us! With our feet on the ground, and our head cool, but with our heart ablaze with the love of God, we walk out in this fullness of the Spirit, if we will yield and obey. God wants to work through you!"

How long will I continue. Jada's Gigi said "almost all pain comes from the holding on."... Knowing what to do and continuing to not do it....what a load of crap I must be selling myself and yet I'm buyin!!