Thursday, August 24, 2006

Jeremiah 33 & 34; Psalm 74; 1 John 5 (The Message)

Would love to just have someone to talk to…..
And here YOU are…..

This money thing we are getting ready to do, I vascilate between annoyed and excited and downright scared. This YOU being in every part of my life….I think I do the same…..annoyed and then a bit excited that YOU care that much and then scared that YOU do….

Seeing that again there is nothing in me that is RESPONSIVELY obedient….oh I’ll do it…I AM after all obedient, just never responsively so….always have to wrestle with it a bit or perhaps…. let’s be honest…just…stubbornly refuse for a bit……So here I am Father…..sad and sorry and I think even repentant that I never just follow…….no arguments or excuses just turning towards you sorry…….
A lifetime of doing my own thing…….being bound up in $$$ never having enough…….never living without of course....... we are in America after all……but to my mind, never selfishly/self protectively having enough…….

Jeremiah 33: 2-3" This is God's Message, the God who made earth, made it livable and lasting, known everywhere as God: 'Call to me and I will answer you. I'll tell you marvelous and wondrous things that you could never figure out on your own.'…

..........And then I checked where I was this time last year: Wednesday, August 24, 2005
Jeremiah 33-34; Psalm 74; 1 John 5
This prayer is the first thing I see this AM ... Father, forgive me for taking obedience to your will so lightly. Sometimes your way seems restrictive and hard. However, dear Father, deep in my heart I do genuinely believe that your will is a blessing and not a hindrance. Use me to help others find joy in obeying you, too. In Jesus' name I pray. Amen.
Jeremiah 33: 19 God saying 'go ahead you make day and nite and IF you can do that then MY WILL will not be done'.....God's will, God's place is to OBEY......and the thing is like the prayer says I KNOW deep in my heart, I believe it IS a quit struggling


Jada's Gigi said...

Those who believe that they believe in God, but without passion in their hearts, without anguish in mind, without uncertainty, without doubt, without an element of despair even in their consolation, believe in the God idea, not God himself. ~Miguel de Unamuno
I love this!!
His way is the best way and deep inside, those of us who are His are convinced of that.

Bruce said...

None of us ever just follow, do we? There are always arguments and excuses. 'Call to me and I will answer you.' A promise we can cling to, eh?


Pixie said...

I am glad I visited your site today, I am struggling with this lately. Most days I feel so young spiritually, so reckless in my walk. Thank you for speaking your heart and for sharing it.