...in the thinking do I but check the condition or do I in thinking too much harden my own heart to what You are saying??.....
I sometimes don’t want to ‘hear’ what you are saying…..
I don’t want to make myself vulnerable to this or that person or situation and CHOOSE to self protect…….
I say I WANT to live vulnerably but as soon as that vulnerability looks to place me in a position to BE HURT I self protect….I justify or manipulate to get the results I want rather than trusting YOU…..so….I sin…..that’s the word isn’t it??
And then in Luke…..the ultimate in honest humble replies… 3 So Pilate asked Jesus, "Are you the king of the Jews?" "Yes, it is as you say," Jesus replied….
the ultimate in loving us where we are at…...34 Jesus said, "Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing."[e] And they divided up his clothes by casting lots. …….
now the thing is I don’t want to stay where I am at…..I think I know what it is I am doing……I need YOUR help Father to stop doing it or to do it….as You lead……