Tuesday, January 23, 2007

Exodus 6-8; Luke 23

So God hardened Pharoahs heart and Pharoah hardened his own heart. YOU do what YOU do for YOUR intents, Your purposes, YOUR GLORY. Not mine to wonder how or the whys of it but to in my own journey watch the condition of my own heart…??
...in the thinking do I but check the condition or do I in thinking too much harden my own heart to what You are saying??.....

I sometimes don’t want to ‘hear’ what you are saying…..

I don’t want to make myself vulnerable to this or that person or situation and CHOOSE to self protect…….

I say I WANT to live vulnerably but as soon as that vulnerability looks to place me in a position to BE HURT I self protect….I justify or manipulate to get the results I want rather than trusting YOU…..so….I sin…..that’s the word isn’t it??


And then in Luke…..the ultimate in honest humble replies… 3 So Pilate asked Jesus, "Are you the king of the Jews?" "Yes, it is as you say," Jesus replied….


the ultimate in loving us where we are at…...34 Jesus said, "Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing."[e] And they divided up his clothes by casting lots. …….


now the thing is I don’t want to stay where I am at…..I think I know what it is I am doing……I need YOUR help Father to stop doing it or to do it….as You lead……

5 comments:

Bruce said...

We all claim to want that vulnerablity, that realness, that sense that we are open and honest with others and ourselves. But you were right when you said that we all "self protect," like a turtle withdrawing into it's shell. And then that shell is very hard to get through. Sometimes even for God Himself.

B~

Layla said...

Yep. I agree with you and the other B.

(great photo!!!)

Smitty said...

Hum..very interesting. There seems to be a common thread amongst a couple of us bloggers. Maybe I'm just scared to be vulnerable because of the position that might place me in or because of what God might do. Thanks for the reminder that Jesus accepted the worst of sinners and He accepts us to, just as we are.

holy chaos said...

i have been examining my own heart lately, don't like what i have been seeing and feeling... things i thought were long gone re-surface and remind me that God is my only hope to change... and i wonder this,too, do i want to change because i will feel better about myself... or is it because i want to please Him and be more like Him?

Karen said...

sounds like you hit a chord with a bunch of us! I dreamt of turtles last night, shells, and all....