Tuesday, March 20, 2007

Joshua 7 & 8; Psalm 69; 1 Corinthians 5

“Listen to the mustn'ts, child. Listen to the don'ts. Listen to the shouldn'ts, the impossibles, the won'ts. Listen to the never haves, then listen close to me... Anything can happen, child. Anything can be." Shel Silverstein
“Listen and be led.” L.M. Heroux

Been praying this prayer….

Been sensing a fight against ‘the neediness that God dependence requires'... typical…pray to hear His voice and then fight it or ignore it or wrestle or question when I do…..Pray and then when it’s answered be surprised…..then this morning this from a casual friend that said

‘Begging God daily is the right place to be. Not to possess anything in myself but to draw the day’s grace as the branch draws from the vine – whether bread or essays or purity of heart. Andrew Murray says it was God’s intention, in creating the universe, to communicate His attributes to His creatures. “But this communication was not meant to give created beings something they could possess in themselves, having full charge and access apart from Him. Rather, God as the ever present, ever living, ever active One….meant that the relationship of His creatures to Himself would be one of unceasing, absolute dependence.” (humility)
In your right mind you wouldn’t want it any other way. Andree’ Seu

The chapter’s in Joshua, a people led by God, living in and under His protection…manna provided daily and IF they tried to get more for another day it was rotten in the keeping…..a people who were guaranteed victory but when they didn’t trust that victory were defeated…a people who were told to destroy everything when they were victorious and IF they didn’t ……a God who wants our dependence in a world that rewards Independence…..
So what am I thinking praying this stuff and then wondering WHY it’s answered?? The point of the journey is to want what God wants MORE than anything……that HAS to be YOU…..

In your right mind……so dependence IS the way You want us and in the bowl I don’t have to worry about it.....out of the bowl I can't breathe without You..... If a tunnel comes will I have the guts to walk into and through it?? Only in dependence.....I am scared I guess.......


Layla said...

Dependence. Just makes me think back to having a newborn...an toddler...they depended on us for everything and rarely had a care in the world (they just get upset when they don't get their way...hmm sounds familiar).

Michelle said...

I too struggle with dependence, I think because you can't depend on one fully without trust, and I also struggle with trust. Trusting has lead to hurt so many time. Being scared is normal I think(gosh I hope so) but would/will be so worth it if/when we can push through it.