Friday, April 11, 2008

1 Samuel 11 &12 ; 1 Chronicles 1; 2 Corinthians 11

In my work life I am surrounded right now by pain, not mine, others. I so desire to live as a light to those suffering. A light that shows them a way through their pain. I pray today to be so focused on You as to be that light.

1 Samuel 12: 20 "Do not be afraid," Samuel replied. "You have done all this evil; yet do not turn away from the LORD, but serve the LORD with all your heart. 21 Do not turn away after useless idols. They can do you no good, nor can they rescue you, because they are useless. 22 For the sake of his great name the LORD will not reject his people, because the LORD was pleased to make you his own. 23 As for me, far be it from me that I should sin against the LORD by failing to pray for you. And I will teach you the way that is good and right. 24 But be sure to fear the LORD and serve him faithfully with all your heart; consider what great things he has done for you. 25 Yet if you persist in doing evil, both you and your king will be swept away."

And there it is the comfort the hope of Your word. It’s like Piper says, the pursuit of You is not optional…… true joy and happiness come from that pursuit. In the midst of pain and turmoil the hope You and only YOU provide. It’s more than you can put into words and sometimes more than you can live and yet and yet…’s where I want to live and in that living maybe you become the light??

A song I heard this morning….these lyrics encourage me..
You draw me gently to my knees, and I am
Lost for words, so lost in love,
I'm sweetly broken, wholly surrendered

How do you live ‘sweetly broken, wholly surrendered’ without this time with You?
I can’t preach this I can only live it. And the sweetly broken when it become painful what then do I exhibit??
2 Corinthians 11: 3 But I am afraid that just as Eve was deceived by the serpent's cunning, your minds may somehow be led astray from your sincere and pure devotion to Christ. 4 For if someone comes to you and preaches a Jesus other than the Jesus we preached, or if you receive a different spirit from the one you received, or a different gospel from the one you accepted, you put up with it easily enough.

Here I am in the word struggling with freakin everything, what about those who don’t have the foggiest notion of a life in Christ? What does our battling each other/ourselves do for them? I don’t know if I like church or want to BE the church, I don’t know why there are so many ways to do church and yet I am drawn to the different ways…..drawn and repelled at the variety….what the hell is that about? My own lack of commitment…I am scared to do anything save for seek to follow and pursue You and in that pursuit what am I exhibiting?…I hope it’s a love that points to You and You alone. But I am really scared that all it does exhibit is a weak person. But maybe to be effective here at this office right now that weakness is where You will work…I hope so, Father I hope so.


Robert said...

I hope so too becky i really hope so very much. Hope that being a weak person means He will display Himself even more because I do not have the ability to do anything in and of myself that is loving and beautiful like He does.

Jenn said...

"For when I am weak, then I am strong."
2 Cor. 12:10

"I die every day—I mean that, brothers—just as surely as I glory over you in Christ Jesus our Lord."
1 Cor. 15:31