Friday, August 19, 2005

Jeremiah 45-47; Psalm 105; John 21

Why wouldn't I....don't I trust YOU....Your will...Your time??
This morning was so fun, for us anyway, not so sure Lynz would agree with that adjective but going to the hospital because YOU say it 'may' be time....and then the 4 of us going to breakfast afterward because it wasn't, time that is.....but the whole experience.....just cool and awe inspiring......
I KNOW it but I think I forgot......the whole of a new being...a baby......a sperm and an egg, what are the odds they find each other and from that inauspicious beginning and amongst alot of cell dividing.....YOUR fingerprints are on this new being...YOU know he/she and have placed in him or her who he or she is in YOU.........that's just amazing....and I forget .....but Father we are anxious to meet.....????

John 21: 20Peter turned and saw that the disciple whom Jesus loved was following them. (This was the one who had leaned back against Jesus at the supper and had said, "Lord, who is going to betray you?") 21When Peter saw him, he asked, "Lord, what about him?"

Peter had run to Jesus and had a really heart felt conversation with Him...Jesus asking him 3X 'do you love me' and of course Peter saying YES YES YES......this amazing exchange with Jesus, time spent being experiencing so much love and forgiveness and empowering him to 'FEED MY SHEEP" .... and STILL he wonders about what will happen to John......what more did he want.....what MORE am I always looking for.....

Don't get me wrong I see that he is being told that he will die.....I understand..... but Jesus just says 'follow me' ..... Peter has been with him, knows him, has betrayed and been forgiven by him....I'm not saying following Christ is easy........

2 comments:

Curious Servant said...

It is difficult to stop making myself the most important thing in my life.

Being a servant is what He made me for. If only I could truly make it my only aim.

Thanks for the post.

so i go said...

i love the conversations you have with God; the way you wrestle with Him, give in, seek comfort. many times, i just imagine you shouting at the sky.

keep writing.. keep wrestling..