Wednesday, August 03, 2005

Nahum 1-3; John 5

I can only think of how grateful I am this morning.....grateful that YOU are guiding Dara....grateful that she is going/following.....grateful that You are taking my whole family on the ride of our lives....towards full devotion....at least that's what it feels like. Sitting at supper last nite, each of us sharing our hearts.....knowing that each of us is struggling to bring YOU full center, wanting...seeking....HOW to live for You and struggling against it.
So alot of gratitude this morning....despite our struggling YOU don't quit......You don't leave.....
YOU ARE AMAZING GOD.....
I do pray for her this morning Father, but of course YOU know her better than I do so I just surrender all my judgements and desires for her to YOURS.....and I probably will have to do that repeatedly throughout not only today but the rest of our lives....
YOU ARE AMAZING GOD....
I pray for Jared.....crap, I see so much of me in him, so much of him yearning to be loved...demanding to be loved and just pray that ....no again I just surrender my judgements and desires for him to YOURS.....
YOU ARE AMAZING GOD...
And me....I just pray to live OFF the 'sick carousel'....to live focused on YOU and in that focus there is everything else...
there is being forgiven and loved and I am more forgiving and loving...
there is gratitude...
there is a fullness I can't have, never had before YOU....
YOU ARE AMAZING GOD......

Nahum 1: 2 The LORD is a jealous and avenging God; the LORD takes vengeance and is filled with wrath. The LORD takes vengeance on his foes and maintains his wrath against his enemies. 3 The LORD is slow to anger and great in power; the LORD will not leave the guilty unpunished.

6 Who can withstand his indignation? Who can endure his fierce anger? His wrath is poured out like fire; the rocks are shattered before him.
7 The LORD is good, a refuge in times of trouble. He cares for those who trust in him,


Life is not about me........that was a hard one to swallow but once you swallow it....you are never the same.....not that you become about others... but IF....IF you can become about HIM about seeking Him.....He takes care of everything else.
Life is not about me...it is about this amazing God who desires to be known, and through Christ He allows us that privilege....getting to know God...
Life is not about me it is about living in such a way that the people we touch, work with, live with.....want to know HIM...because if they don't.....well... He IS good but He is jealous as well and without Christ we are all guilty........I don't know how it happens but I know it has to, it absolutely has to.....and when it does ......when our hearts are about seeking Him and His will......HE does it.....
YOU ARE AMAZING GOD...

The story of the invalid at the Sheep Gate pool......lying there for years, 38 years......Jesus looks at him and asks him
John 5: 6When Jesus saw him lying there and learned that he had been in this condition for a long time, he asked him, "Do you want to get well?"
Living life for and about ourselves is an illness, it is crippling.... a lifetime of being ill, being about ourselves.....living solely and completely for ourselves, we don't even KNOW we're sick. And then someone offers us a cure....a redemption.....but we have lain beside the pool for so long we have forgotten we are ill or we just cannot admit and ask for help?? Do you want to get well........Like I realized yesterday (i'm a little slow on the uptake)...l can know something but until I wrestle with it I don't KNOW it..... HE can make us well and all we have to do is discover how ill we really are.....

2 comments:

Paula said...

Becky,

Thanks for your comment at God's Gals today. What an awesome, honest post you wrote. I felt I could see straight to your soul! I am adding you to my blogroll this very minute, then I'm coming back to read the posts I missed. When you visit my site, check out my side bar, the woman who designed God's Gals is giving away five free designs to my readers. Not sure if you're interested, but just in case ;)

Your Sister In Christ,

Barbara said...

Becky,

I did not know that you had started blogging again until I got your e-mail.

I will pray for great lessings on you and all the family.

Psalm 18

27 You save the humble but bring low those whose eyes are haughty.
28 You, O LORD, keep my lamp burning; my God turns my darkness into light.
29 With your help I can advance against a troop; with my God I can scale a wall.
30 As for God, his way is perfect;
the word of the LORD is flawless.He is a shield for all who take refuge in him.
31 For who is God besides the LORD ?
And who is the Rock except our God?
32 It is God who arms me with strength and makes my way perfect.
33 He makes my feet like the feet of a deer; he enables me to stand on the heights.
34 He trains my hands for battle; my arms can bend a bow of bronze.
35 You give me your shield of victory, and your right hand sustains me; you stoop down to make me great.
36 You broaden the path beneath me,
so that my ankles do not turn.
37 I pursued my enemies and overtook them;I did not turn back till they were destroyed.
38 I crushed them so that they could not rise;they fell beneath my feet.
39 You armed me with strength for battle; you made my adversaries bow at my feet.