John 7-8

John 8: 31 To the Jews who had believed him, Jesus said, "If you hold to my teaching, you are really my disciples. 32Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free."
33They answered him, "We are Abraham's descendants and have never been slaves of anyone. How can you say that we shall be set free?"
34Jesus replied, "I tell you the truth, everyone who sins is a slave to sin. 35 Now a slave has no permanent place in the family, but a son belongs to it forever. 36 So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed.
So if the SON sets you free, believing humbling yourself to believe, to accept that He died for me for you......'what you focus on you become'......focus on Jesus become FREE...remember.... feel free.....only when I take my eyes off of Jesus do I become bound again, problem is I have not figured out or conquered how to always focus on Jesus so the sense of freedom comes and goes and yet in Christ I am FREE whether I sense it or not.
What a line of thinking huh and one that probably doesn't make sense at first glance and yet it's true. It's not whether I FEEL or SENSE Christ that I am free, I am FREE because of Him and I have to choose to live in that freedom, to bring my focus back to Christ.
What happens to me in the freedom? Focused on Christ I seek more to understand than to be understood. ......Whoa that is a big one for me, I am driven or can be driven by a need to be loved and understood....and when I am loved I FEEL understood. In focusing on Christ I LOVE more because I KNOW how much I am loved. So in that feeling of being loved I seek more to understand someone else rather than being so freakin concerned that they understand me......and in that freedom YOU use me to explore and love them to a new, You use me to be a light?? Focused on YOU I am usable....FREE and loving and usable.....????
Boy the being bound up sucks you know and yet how often I find myself bound up yet again by needing someone to 'understand' me, 'approve' of me.....these truths I have wrestled with, I have seen the dark alley and me with my cup out saying 'more please' . WHY do I keep going back to it.....why do I not just live FREE??? But just because I don't LIVE FREE doesn't mean I'm not, I am a work in progress.....I am Free in Jesus Christ and I just need to remember that. What an amazing God!!!!