Friday, December 02, 2005

Romans 9-12

Oh boy.......how do you live trusting the SPIRIT? I just got done telling someone if I am going to believe He is who He says He is then I have to believe He's got my back.....but...... ahhhh there it is again that big fat BUT that stops me in my tracks......
Focus on Christ, on the Word and just FOLLOW......

Romans 9: 14 What then shall we say? Is God unjust? Not at all! 15 For he says to Moses, "I will have mercy on whom I have mercy, and I will have compassion on whom I have compassion."16 It does not, therefore, depend on man's desire or effort, but on God's mercy. 17 For the Scripture says to Pharaoh: "I raised you up for this very purpose, that I might display my power in you and that my name might be proclaimed in all the earth." 18 Therefore God has mercy on whom he wants to have mercy, and he hardens whom he wants to harden.
19One of you will say to me: "Then why does God still blame us? For who resists his will?" 20But who are you, O man, to talk back to God? "Shall what is formed say to him who formed it, 'Why did you make me like this?' "21
Does not the potter have the right to make out of the same lump of clay some pottery for noble purposes and some for common use?

This is tough stuff...I want to believe if I follow then I will be.....understood and affirmed....that is not promised to me or to anyone. What if I am .......just who I am... a passionate woman for Christ. Never to be able to communicate the way I want?? Can I live with that......?
I think so because I've seen the 'fit' now and KNOW that I can recieve NOTHING in that so ........I'm going to hold on to what I told her.....He's got my back.......focused on Him His will WILL be done and I am happy with that.....remember AT THIS MOMENT...You may have to remind me of this in the future...could be the near future......

Romans 9: 33 As it is written: "See, I lay in Zion a stone that causes men to stumble and a rock that makes them fall, and the one who trusts in him will never be put to shame." ...See He's got my back.....I'm gonna TRUST that , TRY to TRUST THAT.....moment by moment.....
How awesome is that you know....I screw up and screw up and can always come back to that to HIM....GRACE who can understand it......?????

And here it is ......Romans 10: 1 Brothers, my heart's desire and prayer to God for the Israelites is that they may be saved. 2 For I can testify about them that they are zealous for God, but their zeal is not based on knowledge. 3 Since they did not know the righteousness that comes from God and sought to establish their own, they did not submit to God's righteousness. 4 Christ is the end of the law so that there may be righteousness for everyone who believes.
Christianity Explored...we are introducing it at our church in January and my husband and I have taken a Leadership Role in it....Leadership Role....we are passionate about Christ and the life change possible ...heck guaranteed with Christ and have a desire to see this WORK in our church but.... there it is again.....BUT .....we are not good leaders.....so we are trying to attack it with eyes and ears and hearts to serve and and .....Father God you know our hearts our gifts and our limitations please do a mighty work in SC, in us to follow and be whatever it is...do whatever it takes to make this program YOURS......
How many of us, myself included had a zeal for God but NO KNOWLEDGE....trying so hard to EARN what YOU so freely offered......that's so freakin hard to understand and yet BUT.......nope it's just hard and I'm gonna focus on YOU and follow......YOU are an awesome God and are gonna do what YOU are gonna do!!!
And here it is again....Romans 10: 9 That if you confess with your mouth, "Jesus is Lord," and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. 10 For it is with your heart that you believe and are justified, and it is with your mouth that you confess and are saved. 11 As the Scripture says, "Anyone who trusts in him will never be put to shame."12 For there is no difference between Jew and Gentile—the same Lord is Lord of all and richly blesses all who call on him, 13 for, "Everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved." 14How, then, can they call on the one they have not believed in? And how can they believe in the one of whom they have not heard? And how can they hear without someone preaching to them? 15And how can they preach unless they are sent? As it is written, "How beautiful are the feet of those who bring good news!"
NEVER be put to shame... Hey I know it's ugly but that's the crap I deal with...so concerned w/what people think.....God please HELP me to understand all that YOU have given me and NOT be driven by that fear....BUT....no no buts that's what I am always scared of....what people will think
Romans 11: 17 If some of the branches have been broken off, and you, though a wild olive shoot, have been grafted in among the others and now share in the nourishing sap from the olive root, 18 do not boast over those branches. If you do, consider this: You do not support the root, but the root supports you. 19 You will say then, "Branches were broken off so that I could be grafted in." 20 Granted. But they were broken off because of unbelief, and you stand by faith. Do not be arrogant, but be afraid. 21For if God did not spare the natural branches, he will not spare you either.
22 Consider therefore the kindness and sternness of God: sternness to those who fell, but kindness to you, provided that you continue in his kindness. Otherwise, you also will be cut off. 23 And if they do not persist in unbelief, they will be grafted in, for God is able to graft them in again. 24 After all, if you were cut out of an olive tree that is wild by nature, and contrary to nature were grafted into a cultivated olive tree, how much more readily will these, the natural branches, be grafted into their own olive tree!
And there it is such HOPE.....because if HE can do it in me, in YOU ...then who knows who else will be SAVED!! Love them to Jesus......

2 comments:

So I Go said...

God I love these wranglings, these "how" and "why" questions.. you're tenacious and determined and you're finding your answers in the most true place.

You've got a lot going on in your head and heart and soul, all at once, don't you?

I love to see how it all spills out. It's really a beautiful thing.

Oh, and by the way.. I think you and your husband will make amazing leaders.

MaryAnn M said...

ahhhh there it is again that big fat BUT that stops me in my tracks......


made me laugh...had the same thing happen to me yesterday and made my happy-joy balloon deflate a bit by the time bedtime rolled around i was draggin it on the floor.

i shouldnt have listened to the "comments" but i did...I allowed those lies to come in and infect my day. it was the "but they might be right"...it was my big BUT (butt?) that got in the way of a joyfilled day.

makes me more determined to trust in my Father. I will trust in what the Spirit tells me.