Tuesday, February 28, 2006

Numbers 24-27; 1 Corinthians 13



So much this morning and not sure what to do with any of it.
Wanting wanting wanting...but YOU already know so now it's just waiting, waiting, waiting......

Glimpses of YOU all over and noone to share them with.
Why aren't YOU enough?
Sharing them, knowing they are from YOU.
Why aren't YOU enough?
I want You to be.....I need You to be......

waiting......waiting....with my eyes and heart on YOU waiting.....

Thank You Father for the journey. Now it's up to me to stay on it...
One foot in front of the other....one foot in front of the other......


I wish I didn't ramble. I wish I could see what You see...... no that's not true.
I wish...I wish I would LET YOU BE ENOUGH........

Numbers 24 : 12 Balaam answered Balak, "Did I not tell the messengers you sent me, 13 'Even if Balak gave me his palace filled with silver and gold, I could not do anything of my own accord, good or bad, to go beyond the command of the LORD -and I must say only what the LORD says'?
1 Corinthians 13: 1 If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal.

Gettting in the discussion w/B last nite re: Homosexuality...I don't know Father...but your word Romans 1:27 Sexually confused, they abused and defiled one another, women with women, men with men--all lust, no love. And then they paid for it, oh, how they paid for it--emptied of God and love, godless and loveless wretches.
I tried to be full of love. I felt full of Your love or told myself I did. I don't know... it's a sin but so is a whole litany of other things. Things of which I am guilty.... Not my place to judge, the only thing I shared was YOUR word and my confusion, my journey of being tolerant and then judgmental and now just confused....resting in Your word, Your love and trusting there's nothing I can or should do....

YOU say LOVE and that's all. I am no leader, no influencer of men or women, I am a sheep and I want a shepherd to protect ME.....and yet in the midst of the herd I keep thinking I am responsible for the journey of .....others and I'm not. (see Melissa's comment) Right...

It's about following YOU.....covered in GRACE myself, just loving and being grateful to YOU.....

I generally don't think of or on any of it...perhaps that is my problem now, I rest so much in the confusion I am of no earthly use.....that's crap....not to get lost in the crap, in someone else's argument......I don't have one.....I can't....standing in the waterfall of YOUR grace I can't...... Opinions, scary things leaving you open to being judged yourself and yet to adbicate all thought is not Your will either...is it???

1 Corinthians 13: 12We don't yet see things clearly. We're squinting in a fog, peering through a mist. But it won't be long before the weather clears and the sun shines bright! We'll see it all then, see it all as clearly as God sees us, knowing him directly just as he knows us! 13But for right now, until that completeness, we have three things to do to lead us toward that consummation: Trust steadily in God, hope unswervingly, love extravagantly. And the best of the three is love.

4 comments:

jel said...

AWESOME

Larry said...

What more is there, really, than Jesus? When I went to church for the first time in many years, my main idea was to make human friends. What I got instead was a face-to-face encounter with God, whom I considered to be the booby prize. Not what I wanted. Second best, at best.

Since then I've learned otherwise. God is patient in his teaching. The stone that the builders rejected has become the cornerstone of my life, the "booby prize" a pearl of great price. It's all his doing, too. I didn't earn a lick of it. Jesus removed the veil so that I could partake of his spirit.

So, yes, it's a difficult road. Change always is confusing. Change is essential so that we can see God for who he is, not for who society and the church say he is. We just keep walking, and the touch of his hand on mine is what keeps me going.

Bar Bar A said...

God is using you to speak to me.

Karen said...

Love...that's all there is. Some fellow posted a Carl Sagan quote about the "pale blue dot" we all live on. It was a great blog site..I didn't agree with all of it..but if Carl was trying to make us realize how insignificant we are way out in the universe..it just made me realize how SIGNIFICANT God is to have made us; our planet, the stars, the universe and most of all....intangible, incomprehensible...LOVE.
Thank you for your words, sweet Becky!