Friday, March 24, 2006

Joshua 18-20; 1 Cor. 9

I'm 'tired'
I'm 'scared'
The common denominator is ............ I'm......... = ME

48 years of hiding in fatigue or at least the last 10 or so....
This year it's been hiding behind fear...

Fear of the Lord is the beginning of understanding
After 49 years of 'ignorance' .......
Beginning my 5th decade in Knowing????

That's / those / these are my beginning thoughts this morning....
Tears of JOY??
Tears of humility and desire??
Tears of dependence??

I don't know.....

I hear YOU
Risk EVERYTHING
I have heard it all YEAR
What do I do now???

MOVE................................where...into what???....Just MOVE.....
1 Cor. 9: 12 .......we put up with anything rather than hinder the gospel of Christ...
I think sitting at breakfast this morning I was...... it really broke loose...my love of God and lost people....shouldn't be a surprise....shouldn't be a revelation....shouldn't be as earth shattering as it 'feels' perhaps but it does...it FEELS huge....so now focus on YOU the revelation and NOT WHAT I WANT....I will put up with anything rather than hinder the gospel of Christ.....I pray this Father....I pray with humility and yet a boldness born of faith......and I am so very sorry for all that I have done to hinder it....I am soooo sorry.....and then this verse.....
19Though I am free and belong to no man, I make myself a slave to everyone, to win as many as possible...what does this look like.....RISK EVERYTHING......
24 Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one gets the prize? Run in such a way as to get the prize. 25 Everyone who competes in the games goes into strict training. They do it to get a crown that will not last; but we do it to get a crown that will last forever. 26 Therefore I do not run like a man running aimlessly; I do not fight like a man beating the air. 27No, I beat my body and make it my slave so that after I have preached to others, I myself will not be disqualified for the prize.....
Just MOVE.....

5 comments:

lex said...

the message corinthians 9:19

even though i am free of the demands and expectations of everyone, I have voluntarily become a servant to any and all in order to reach a wide range of people: religious, nonreligious, meticulous moralists, loose living immoralists, the defeated, the demoralized--whoever. i didn't take on their way of life. I kept my bearings in Christ--but i entered their world and tried to experience things from their point of view. I've become just about every sort of servant there is in my attempts to lead those i meet into a God-saved life. i did all this because of the message. i didn't just want to talk about it;i wanted to be in on it.

i want to be in on it...although making myself a slave to everyone is going to be a process. thank goodness its a process that God will perfect--and not me...your post was just what i needed to begin to thirst after God this morning.

MaryAnn M said...

daughter just texted back...if you mention this to dad i promise i will leave again!!

Jada's Gigi said...

only when in motion can your direction be changed so it doesnt'really matter what you do or where you go, just do and go...He can change your direction if you will get up and move.
did you ever read my post on "Costs". Might be pertinent. I think it is in the Jan. archives

Danielle said...

"I'm a hostage here for hope, not doom." Acts 28:20

Like Paul, we all serve from prisons. We continue to serve, continue to love, to look up and remain faithful. Thank you, sister, for the reminder there is nothing else.

Sarah said...

The race requires endurance, we stumble when we take our eyes off the finish line. Satan will throw things in our path to trip us up, stay focused and attentive to the Lord, He will guide and direct your path.