Tuesday, April 18, 2006

1 Samuel 20-21; Psalm 34; Matthew 5


The break is over and it's back to work.....
The weather is beautiful and wouldn't I love to just BE outside!!
Spent some time today rewriting Psalm 34....it was a really cathartic exercise.....

18 The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. The Lord is close, so close to the brokenhearted, the broken hearted are not simply 'hurt and hurting' their brokenness takes them to Him and He saves those who are crushed in spirit....ALWAYS
19 A righteous man may have many troubles, but the LORD delivers him from them all; 20 he protects all his bones, not one of them will be broken.
Following Christ does NOT mean there will be NO TROUBLE, but the LORD in ahead and behind and protects us.......We following Christ ARE protected!!Don't live in fear....RISK and MOVE...
21 Evil will slay the wicked; the foes of the righteous will be condemned.
Evil, doing what is 'right in our own eyes', opposite of seeking HIS will, will be condemned. Choosing to be in opposition to Him takes us away and into condemnation....our choice....
22 The LORD redeems his servants; no one will be condemned who takes refuge in him. Anyone who turns to Him is redeemed. NO one who takes refuge in Him will be condemned!
The italicized is what I rewrote.....the whole of 'what is right in my own eyes'...sounds so churchy and it is from the Bible but it's just what I am finding for me to be true and I don't know what other words to wrap around it...
It's me wanting what I want and doing whatever it takes to get it versus.....following Him and trusting Him with what I want...knowing that He knows it, knows my heart better than I and gives it to me IF I follow Him.....and....and...
I don't know if I should share this, some might find it sacreligious or worse that .....'she's off the deep end'....well I don't want to care what THEY might think and I guess I am getting more and more to where I don't care..??..... swimming in the shallow end is getting increasingly boring......Diving in and maybe to Risk Everything is becoming more and more attractive.....

5 comments:

MaryAnn M said...

Freefall

Jada's Gigi said...

I guess I'm wondering what it is that you are so afraid of, although I guess its mostly the unknown...the no going back...it was for me anyway....but the shallow end is indeed very boring...boring to the point of death for me.
Here's something you might find interesting....I found the Lord a long time ago in a deep way when I jumped off a cliff. That's an analogy...I think...but it stays with me. I was at the end of myself, at the end of what I knew, what worked... and anything else was "the big Unknown". but I had come to the place where the unknown seemed the only choice and going back wasn't an option. I finally "let go and let God" (and boy does that sound religious)(but it wasn't. I spiritually stepped of the edge of a cliff and I had the distinct feeling of free falling. I had no idea whether or not He would catch me but I was at the place where it didn't matter...there was no going back to shallow water...to any water at all if not at the bottom of the cliff. :) It was a very desperate place to be and a very scary one.....
Need I say...everything changed that "day" (it was really several months I think) but with that step anyway. I don't know how to explain the "how to"....but like Nike...may I encourage you to "Just Do It"....
EVERYTHING changed.....its been 20+ yrs now and everything is still completely different than it was before. Go For it! unless remaining where you are is still an option...I think maybe this only works if you are desperate and have no other options....

Jada's Gigi said...

Too funny...I just read maryann's comment....lol

Bruce said...

This is great. Yesterday I sent the first verse of this Psalm to a friend of mine who is beating herself up about something, but I'm going to send her a link to this now. I think it speaks to everyone's heart.

His peace.
B~

Diva Dara said...

You will know you really don't care what they think when you can say - I'm getting more and more to where I don't care.
instead of

"i'm getting more and more to where I don't care. . .???"

Praying for your question marks to become periods. I love you?
I love you! Dara.