Thursday, August 17, 2006
I am troubled this morning by my lack of submission.....(hard heart)...?
I am troubled by my immediate response to….well crap... to EVERYTHING…..
I am troubled by ME…..
What happens when I am troubled??? Well of course EVERYTHING is about me then…..I can’t see the forest for the trees so to speak…….I can’t …..I can’t becomes the first word out of my mouth…..
In driving home this morning into a brilliant sun shining and for all practical purposes blinding me…….I got to thinking…….
Whenever the sun shone in my eyes I had to look only at the side of the road…I had to drive more carefully with only the edge of the pavement as my guide and whenever the brilliance of the sun disappeared behind a house or a hill or a cloud I could see the road again……..I got to thinking I KNEW where the sun was and began anticipating when the blindness would hit……anticipating……I turned the corner to my home and ‘thought’ I knew where the sun was, was going to be.…but was surprised where the sun actually was ...surprised and yet in remembering I KNEW it should be, where it WAS......Rising gloriously in the EAST and relax and TRUST that….Hey it made sense this morning…..as I was driving this amazing revelation of there ARE some things I KNOW….just like the sun always rising in the EAST and sets in the WEST ....always....
God is an amazingly good God….I KNOW that and while there is much MORE that is beyond my knowledge... all I have to do is go back to the Bible and see for real and certain what HIS INTENTIONS have been from the beginning…..
In the goodness of God is much beyond my understanding, my earthly understanding…..
In the being beyond my understanding I have to TRUST that which I do know…that God created me and I rejected and reject Him but He NEVER rejects me when I ‘turn back’ to HIM.
In my rejecting Him I break His heart…I am not only a law breaker but a heart breaker…..
My understanding of Him comes from reading His word…not and never can from my own thoughts because my thoughts are always and always about what I WANT….His word is about what He wants, has always wanted….His word is a record of the lengths He has gone to from the beginning to love and restore us…How much He sacrificed to bring us into the relationship for which we were in the beginning created FOR…..
So about my being troubled……… ?????
Jeremiah 23: 35-36 "Instead of claiming to know what God says, ask questions of one another, such as 'How do we understand God in this?' But don't go around pretending to know it all, saying 'God told me this...God told me that....' I don't want to hear it anymore. Only the person I authorize speaks for me. Otherwise, my Message gets twisted, the Message of the living God-of-the-Angel-Armies.
37-38"You can ask the prophets, 'How did God answer you? What did he tell you?' But don't pretend that you know all the answers yourselves and talk like you know it all. I'm telling you: Quit the 'God told me this...God told me that...' kind of talk.
39-40"Are you paying attention? You'd better, because I'm about to take you in hand and throw you to the ground, you and this entire city that I gave to your ancestors. I've had it with the lot of you. You're never going to live this down. You're going down in history as a disgrace."
John 19: 28 Jesus, seeing that everything had been completed so that the Scripture record might also be complete, then said, "I'm thirsty."
29-30A jug of sour wine was standing by. Someone put a sponge soaked with the wine on a javelin and lifted it to his mouth. After he took the wine, Jesus said, "It's done . . . complete." Bowing his head, he offered up his spirit.
So alot to think about.......and yet in the thinking and small doubts I HAVE to come back to that which I KNOW......
Posted by Gigi at 9:29 AM