Tuesday, September 26, 2006

Ezra 4; Psalm 113 & 127; Luke 9


Luke 9: 23-27 Then he told them what they could expect for themselves: "Anyone who intends to come with me has to let me lead. You're not in the driver's seat—I am. Don't run from suffering; embrace it. Follow me and I'll show you how. Self-help is no help at all. Self-sacrifice is the way, my way, to finding yourself, your true self. What good would it do to get everything you want and lose you, the real you? If any of you is embarrassed with me and the way I'm leading you, know that the Son of Man will be far more embarrassed with you when he arrives in all his splendor in company with the Father and the holy angels. This isn't, you realize, pie in the sky by and by. Some who have taken their stand right here are going to see it happen, see with their own eyes the kingdom of God."




So He tells the boys to be about HIS business…and he’s there to watch and teach and …….41 Jesus said, "What a generation! No sense of God! No focus to your lives! How many times do I have to go over these things? How much longer do I have to put up with this? Bring your son here."

THEY don’t get it, so why should I? They can’t heal or reach or teach people and HE was teaching them, He was with them for crying outloud….why do I think I am supposed to….because…because like them I want to….soooo badly, be about His business….. What good would it do to get everything you want and lose you, the real you?....so, what is the REAL me???

the point of the journey is to want what God wants MORE THAN ANYTHING’….so ….that’s inside of me….deep inside of me covered with the filth of me….covered with the pride I suffer from…covered with the desires for stuff in the here and now is a desire to want what YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING…..a desire waiting for me to live in…….

2 comments:

lex said...

love the larry crabb quote at the top of your blog! pretending...wow! do you think that part of your pretending is connected to the loss of self that you blogged about?

you asked, "what is the real me?".i can't help think that the root of not remembering who we are is because we have been pretending to be something that we are not...

your blog stirred me and i thought i would in turn stir you...

Bar Bar A said...

Wow, Becky - another wildly passionate post from you. Your desire for God is contagious...you really get to me with your honest longing for Him and your frustration with yourself. You're not alone. For shore.