It was an amazing break with just the right amounts of CHAOS and SOLITUDE. The time with my husband was irreplacable.......the time with my Grandkids and Children amazing.....and now it's time to come back to work and while that doesn't FEEL near as good as being off the reality is I am blessed......totally and completely blessed.
The point of the journey is to write something like this when everything around you sucks....this is one of David's Psalms isn't it?? ..
Psalm 125 Those who trust in God are like Zion Mountain: Nothing can move it, a rock-solid mountain you can always depend on.
IF I’m wanting what God wants of course I would be trusting Him….
IF I’m wanting what God wants more than anything there is nothing that could derail me.
IF I’m wanting what God wants there would be nothing in me false or immature or hurtful….
I am wanting to WANT what God wants more than anything and I LOVE that THAT is a journey……What an amazing God……because until then I will probably struggle and wrestle against EVERYTHING and in the struggle and wrestling…every time I am met with His GRACE……His promises are not for my contentment or safety……His commands…COMMANDS are to LOVE…..IF I’m wanting what God wants more than anything I will LOVE without needing love in return…I will be obedient to Him ….again it’s a JOURNEY and I want all that THAT entails…I want to love without needing LOVE I want to forgive without holding anything back….so I will become a rock…..???
Matthew 26: 39 Going a little ahead, he fell on his face, praying, "My Father, if there is any way, get me out of this. But please, not what I want. You, what do you want?"
Matthew 26: 42 He then left them a second time. Again he prayed, "My Father, if there is no other way than this, drinking this cup to the dregs, I'm ready. Do it your way."
Sure doesn’t sound easy……and yet…..You know He is an amazing God to want to WANT what He wants more than anything THAT IS the point…..at least for me now.....