Embarrassed this morning and wanting to run….wanting to in the ‘be still’ feel Your protection and yet IF I am to live counterintuitively then I must stay committed to moving, to being out in the open and exposed…..but everything in me today wants to run….
To know who I am is scary and to show others even scarier…..to know how I operate is embarrassing to have others know even worse…..if I keep going in and on this route what happens?? I don’t know because I always chicken out….QUIT…I AM a quitter…so I pray today Joshua 22:5 …..to hold fast to him and to serve him with all your heart and all your soul."….
Judges reminding them about taking the land God gave them....they did and then not completely getting rid of the previous inhabitants the way God had told them……
To know who I am is scary and to show others even scarier…..to know how I operate is embarrassing to have others know even worse…..if I keep going in and on this route what happens?? I don’t know because I always chicken out….QUIT…I AM a quitter…so I pray today Joshua 22:5 …..to hold fast to him and to serve him with all your heart and all your soul."….
Judges reminding them about taking the land God gave them....they did and then not completely getting rid of the previous inhabitants the way God had told them……
I ‘think’ I can keep on running when I hear God say ‘stop’….keep on ‘quitting’ when I hear God say perservere…..to lie, wear a mask, keep on ‘hiding’ when I know I am supposed to stay exposed….keep on following my way when I hear Him say ‘live His’……breathing out of the bowl when all you want to do is be back in and be wet and comfortable…… 
3 comments:
Oh my...can I relate to what you just posted.
Hang in there.
becky
your post makes me realize why God has soooooooooooooooo many *one anothers* in His Word becky because we all NEEd THEM!!! Feel like singing *lean on me* sister just might have a problem that you understand we all need each other to lean on slight change of words keep sharing keep wrestling!!!
I've been there more times than I care to admit. Know that your not alone in your struggles and have more support than you know.
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