Thursday, July 26, 2007

Isaiah 46-49; 1 Peter 4

The verse yesterday and my crap interjected at the end is typical of my reaction to reading something and a feeling of conviction or challenge or….whatever….my initial reaction is always a verbal CRAP and an internal struggle. This call to LOVE is beating me up.
My dream is tied into my ability to love and the hope is that in the struggle I am or will or …….
to love without expectation and yet this hope always beats in me that if IF they could know the God that I know, am coming to know…….
....to love without expectation, without an ‘and’ or a ‘but’…..to love because I am loved…..He being a God of LOVE created us to love right??

Antoine de Saint-Exupery ~ If you want to build a ship, don't herd people together to collect wood and don't assign them tasks and work, but rather teach them to long for the endless immensity of the sea.
The endless immensity of the sea is God to me in this quote …..If I want people to know You I have to love You…..In loving You, in being loved by You.....I will become more loving…...
Isaiah 48: 21 They did not thirst when he led them through the deserts;
he made water flow for them from the rock; he split the rock and water gushed out.

Isaiah speaking to and about the stubbornness of the Israelites…..how we don’t see what God is doing….how His love is always there…..how it’s about Him and His knowing what’s best……I can’t tell someone about it if I’m not loving Him and them…..
I can tell ‘em and I’m sure I am supposed to but IF I am not soft and humble how do I come across…??..now IF I am soft and humble I can be hurt ...BUT who after all is my protector……
I don’t know and yet the yearning to know drives me more and more and in that the need to self protect lessens…..sometimes…
1 Peter 4: 5 Young men, in the same way be submissive to those who are older. All of you, clothe yourselves with humility toward one another, because, "God opposes the proud but gives grace to the humble."6 Humble yourselves, therefore, under God's mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. 7 Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.
8 Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. 9 Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that your brothers throughout the world are undergoing the same kind of sufferings.

Pray for me guys….this going on the mountain trip may be……I don’t know please…pray for me…..to not miss….to not …..you know what just pray for me …to allow His love to be what drives me and not wanting what I want…...

7 comments:

So I Go said...

praying right now..

Smitty said...

Praying for you my friend as you figure out the love of God and how to show that love to others.

HeyJules said...

S. mentioned you were having a little trouble with this whole mountain thing. Just go...breath deep...keep an eye out for Jesus...and you'll be fine.

I'm just sure of it. ;-)

Jada's Gigi said...

salt and light...all we need to be...salt and light

Robert said...

thank you praying Hes there follow as you know He has been leading you and guiding you to

jennypo said...

Freedom comes not when fear fades, but when fear is overwhelmed by longing.
I too have longed for "the endless immensity of the sea". I loved this quote, bjk, it is exactly what I struggle to communicate. Thanks.
Praying for you.

JAS said...

You are in my prayers. Blessing in Yeshua.