Tuesday, August 28, 2007

Ezekiel 1 - 3; Revelation 2


A morning of again facing the wake that I left or continue to leave? I hope not, I hope in the standing NAKED there is a different wake, but the problem is there are still those bouncing against or in the wake I left previously??
In repentance there is a relief and yet it only comes from You, is that right and all I can expect? I don’t know which is why I start my mornings here , in Your word. Looking for conviction and or comfort, looking for ways to react differently or to just stop reacting? How to in the nakedness trust that You are protecting and all I have to do is survive? No it’s not about surviving, it’s about choosing differently and allowing You to work in the choice? So I read and journal and pray and listen and move differently?
It's like a sheep ......
or
It’s to live like a child trusting the Father. Not throwing childish fits wanting what I want but childlike trusting who the Father is and what He wants. And if I don’t……well then You’re still God and I will miss being a part of something that You have planned……or ……..

I don't know.....but what I know when am I going to just DO.....to love people without needing their love. Emma and Gabe and this new little one, how to live teaching them that all they need is YOU…….

I am sick of reading posts bashing another’s pursuit of Christ, another’s way of bringing the gospel of Christ to the people in their churches. ... If a church is preaching the gospel of Christ I really don’t care how they do it. Seems as though we the church are doing a really good job of keeping Him and His word away from people by our divisiveness….I wonder what would happen if our own personal relationship with Christ was our focus….whether pastor or priest what would happen if most important in your life was what He wanted rather than looking at how others live it? But this guy seems to say it best using the words of varying others……quit looking at others and just flippin look to Him.
I don’t whether I am sick or emotionally charged or spiritually discontent and driven. So just a day maybe, another day of inthequiet prayer and listening.
Revelation 2: 17 He who has an ear, let him hear what the Spirit says to the churches. To him who overcomes, I will give some of the hidden manna. I will also give him a white stone with a new name written on it, known only to him who receives it.
So it’s only about me and You…….why today is that so hard…….?

2 comments:

the_burning_bush said...

"In repentance there is a relief and yet it only comes from You, is that right and all I can expect?" BJK

There is a very human tendency to look for signs and assurances in every place except for the place where Christ gives peace to His followers. Pointing out the faults of others is usually a way of avoiding that place.

The other assurances may come as gifts from God, and we are right to hope He will send them. For if God did not spare His own Son, will He not also provide us with all things?

Looking over the images here ... it looks like God has given you many good thinks, bjk.

jennypo said...

"to love people without needing their love" (bjk)

This is God's love, so different from ours. It hurts, just like ours does, but it doesn't shrink, it doesn't run away. It feels the pain, and chooses - as God did and does - to love anyway, because love is more valuable than happiness. And then after the pain, another happiness, unlooked-for, is born of love.

The only way to love truly, with strength, and not have love shrivel and die from the cold and the hurt, is to first fill all our need from Christ alone. When we at last let him love us, and in us, and through us, then we too may love, as he loves. I know no deeper pain than this, save one - to be separate from him - and no sweeter joy.

But may the God of all grace, who called us to His eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after you have suffered a while, perfect, establish, strengthen, and settle you. (I Peter 5:10)

Only A WHILE.

Oh, thanks for your view of Him, bjk!