Wednesday, October 31, 2007

Job 22; Mark 7 & 8

I asked rhetorical questions yesterday and was asked back my answer to them. What does following Christ look like to me, what does living and breathing Jesus look like to me?
It’s about waking up in the morning with a song literally in my heart, one that points me to a day of living in a knowledge of Him that is relatively new to me and if not new then so old as to have been ignored.
It’s about seeing my heart as disobedient and yet feeling this pull always to learn what obedience is.
It’s about in that obedience finding out it’s about loving when I would rather self protect and while I usually still self protect , quickly feeling the sting of what that does to me and in the situation I have chosen to self protect in.
It’s about more and more realizing how wrong I am and accepting GRACE in that realization and in that GRACE weird as it is moving forward when my instinct is to retreat and ….
It’s about seeing all this and in the seeing realizing that it’s Him and has been Him forever and will continue to be Him….and maybe someday when I least expect it I will trust Him and ……….

Mark 8: 11 The Pharisees came and began to question Jesus. To test him, they asked him for a sign from heaven. 12 He sighed deeply and said, "Why does this generation ask for a miraculous sign? I tell you the truth, no sign will be given to it." 13 Then he left them, got back into the boat and crossed to the other side.

I am a Pharisee, I know it the truth/Him and trust it the truth/Him very little. I know who He is and trust Him like someone who doesn’t…….Please I don’t want to remain a Pharisee.


Jeff said...

you? a pharasee? not in my book.

pharasees don't ask the questions you ask.
you are in the midst of life change.
from the inside out...rather than the outside in.

Robert said...

the encouragement you gave me before my friend i offer back to you His handprints are all over you i share your tears so in the middle of life change wishing it had happened at 16 as opposed to 46 I see HIm in your posts becky and that is NOT just spiritaul peptalk so glad to share this lifechange journey with you.