In praying yesterday there was just so much sadness. The kind where the only place you can go is to prayer. The kind where I want to run and DO something, any freakin thing to escape the pain. The kind where you walk around yearning for someone to ask ‘what’s up’ and you pray to be able to tell them. The kind that I think God maybe wants us to experience, because He sends us the counselor to help us and only then and there, being so sad and helpless do we listen.
I know in the past I would have denied, ignored, found a way around all the thoughts…. yesterday I just was in them praying. Not too much is different today other than in the conversations so far this AM I see how others deny, ignore, escape….
to be taught something so amazing and not model it, I think that’s our jobs…what now Father, what now??
Dan keeps bringing up this verse and now he has me spinning in it…Romans 12:1 Therefore, I urge you, brothers, in view of God's mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God—this is your spiritual act of worship.
Living sacrifices……that kind of sucks to think about. But definitely something to think about I guess, because I don’t think I even know what sacrifice is.
Nehemiah, modeled a dependence and an amazing amount of leadership with that dependence, that KNOWING that God was for them and what they were doing. Why don’t I, don’t we as followers of Christ model that dependence? Why am I always so scared of everything?
...because I think the outcome will be about me when it is only about Him….living sacrifice…..what the heck is that?