Tuesday, November 20, 2007

Matthew 5-7

All I know is it sucks and not in any kind of way I can explain to anyone else and that to me makes it feel like I am some kind of a freak ……
dying to self what a concept?
And yet maybe it’s more than a concept and the sooner I wrap my brain around my incapability to explain or romanticize it the sooner I surrender into it??
And not surrender to it to make my life easier….
see I don’t know.
Jeff this morning writes and sees or I read it like …..

it sucks……
but oh how amazing is His grace and I want more and more of that……..

and the whole of Matthew today.......
He knows us so well and IF I would just trust THAT knowing and quit needing to KNOW anything else.

4 comments:

Barbara (aka Layla) said...

yeah, that's a big IF and THAT and KNOW. I get it. It does suck.

Smitty said...

Dying to self blows my mind. Absolutely seems so far out of reach...yet I know it's what we are suppose to do. What a tough spot. Know you're not alone.

Robert said...

the way you write in this post becky it is like the way it runs through my mind barbara and smitty say it so well it does suck yet is is so compelling because it is what Jesus did and He IS LIFE day by day dear sister trudging day by day

the_burning_bush said...

"He knows us so well and IF I would just trust THAT knowing and quit needing to KNOW anything else."

What space between your words! Perhaps enough to live one's entire life in.