All I know is it sucks and not in any kind of way I can explain to anyone else and that to me makes it feel like I am some kind of a freak ……
dying to self what a concept?
And yet maybe it’s more than a concept and the sooner I wrap my brain around my incapability to explain or romanticize it the sooner I surrender into it??
And not surrender to it to make my life easier….
see I don’t know.
Jeff this morning writes and sees or I read it like …..
but oh how amazing is His grace and I want more and more of that……..
and the whole of Matthew today.......
He knows us so well and IF I would just trust THAT knowing and quit needing to KNOW anything else.