Wednesday, December 19, 2007

John 5-6

There is a piece of me that longs for perfection. In recognizing my lack of perfection I settle into self contempt, seeing nothing but my incapabilities, my failings, my lack of…….in self contempt sometimes I see Christ and what He desires to do in me, but mostly I see what I am not. So when seeing what I am not takes me to a dependence on Christ, well that’s good….but Gary Thomas wisely says in Sacred Marriage ‘to have contempt for contempt’…I don’t know how to function without first taking on all blame and making every flippin thing about me….So there it is the truth of my sin (surprising me yet again) …..I make everything about me.

Jeff said yesterday “in my humble opinion...what i do is much more important than what i believe.i can believe that electricity lights up my house. but if i do not turn on the switch, i sit in the dark.”

And today Jesus says….. John 5: 1 Some time later, Jesus went up to Jerusalem for a feast of the Jews. 2 Now there is in Jerusalem near the Sheep Gate a pool, which in Aramaic is called Bethesda and which is surrounded by five covered colonnades. 3 Here a great number of disabled people used to lie—the blind, the lame, the paralyzed. 5 One who was there had been an invalid for thirty-eight years. 6 When Jesus saw him lying there and learned that he had been in this condition for a long time, he asked him, "Do you want to get well?"
7 "Sir," the invalid replied, "I have no one to help me into the pool when the water is stirred. While I am trying to get in, someone else goes down ahead of me."
8 Then Jesus said to him, "Get up! Pick up your mat and walk." 9 At once the man was cured; he picked up his mat and walked.
The day on which this took place was a Sabbath, 10 and so the Jews said to the man who had been healed, "It is the Sabbath; the law forbids you to carry your mat."
11 But he replied, "The man who made me well said to me, 'Pick up your mat and walk.' "
12 So they asked him, "Who is this fellow who told you to pick it up and walk?"
13 The man who was healed had no idea who it was, for Jesus had slipped away into the crowd that was there.
14 Later Jesus found him at the temple and said to him, "See, you are well again. Stop sinning or something worse may happen to you." 15 The man went away and told the Jews that it was Jesus who had made him well.

So thanks Jeff gonna walk where He leads....THANKS!


Jenn said...

oh yes - i hear that. had to make one of my mantras be "it is not about me, it is not about me." which works...until i make it all about me. :)(love Gray Thomas, btw)

Robert said...

wow becky why does it seem so easy to stay stuck in the head wondering why everything seems so tough instead of just doing what He calls to do which is love??? always challenging and pinning down to the core you are especially by using Scripture ty friend!!