It's all about You Jesus.........
but it's not is it? It's still all about me??
This morning 'trying' to explain and what I should do is just trust that what I say YOU will explain.....but in trying to explain it IT becomes about ME......seems kinda sorta clear as I sit here and reflect on the interactions.......why don't I just SAY whatever and leave it but NOOOOO I have to explain it to death totally not trusting the Holy Spirit in THAT moment......???? Would that be living in the Spirit ....living FAITH?????
I understand this.......whoo hooo at this moment I understand.......Hebrews 9: 22In fact, the law requires that nearly everything be cleansed with blood, and without the shedding of blood there is no forgiveness.
23It was necessary, then, for the copies of the heavenly things to be purified with these sacrifices, but the heavenly things themselves with better sacrifices than these. 24For Christ did not enter a man-made sanctuary that was only a copy of the true one; he entered heaven itself, now to appear for us in God's presence.
Hebrews 10: 13 Since that time he waits for his enemies to be made his footstool, 14 because by one sacrifice he has made perfect forever those who are being made holy.....those who are being MADE holy.....???
This life is about YOU but we don't know it and then when we discover it we FIGHT it and then ........All of it is being made holy?? What is holy? I am forgiven....I am called to live about YOU, about Jesus and all of it is the process of being MADE??
22 let us draw near to God with a sincere heart in full assurance of faith, having our hearts sprinkled to cleanse us from a guilty conscience and having our bodies washed with pure water. 23 Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for he who promised is faithful. 24And let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds. 25Let us not give up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but let us encourage one another—and all the more as you see the Day approaching.
draw near to God w/a sincere heart.....it's as Willard says my heart is being renovated...NOT restored, as it wasn't worth anything in the beginning but in Christ......there is a renovation process. To renovate something you must tear it completely apart. Get rid of moldy walls and reinforce faulty beams.....the heart as a renovation project......God is the contractor, no the owner... the Holy Spirit is the contractor and He sees what needs to be ripped out and rebuilt and if I am going to be a willing project manager......I have to see what He shows me....I am about ME and that is going to, HAS to go....the mixed metaphors and analogies are staggering and at the very least confusing....but in full assurance of faith......hold unswervingly to the hope we profess.
In my baptism I stood up and said this is what I am going to spend the rest of my life pursuing......I signed on then to the renovation project........sure you get tired of the process but the HOPE in being restored......the hope of standing in heaven and worshipping God w/a new heart...I want to stay committed to the project!!
Now this world is a whole village of renovations and I am called to not only submit to the process but to ... consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds.....step away from the mess of construction (stop being about me) and go and encourage others. See what He is doing in others and encourage them to stay at it......and church is where we can do it.......not a bunch of disgruntled project managers but a bunch of visionaries......encouraging each other.....don't look to BE encouraged...step up and out to DO the encouraging of another...... holding unswervingly to the hope we profess.......
And what about the buildings crumbling around us.....buildings built on sand...... not my place to judge but....]
BUT what?? Always w/eyes on Him ....what??? 31 It is a dreadful thing to fall into the hands of the living God. If I don't talk about You what if someone is ....someone falls into His/Your hands without believing....without knowing and I didn't share, didn't risk......35 So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded. 36 You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised. 37 For in just a very little while, "He who is coming will come and will not delay. 38 But my righteous one will live by faith. And if he shrinks back, I will not be pleased with him." 39 But we are not of those who shrink back and are destroyed, but of those who believe and are saved.
I can see it, the truth.....I can hear it, the truth......Why then do I continue to waste anytime arguing with You......???? See in these tears do I pray for others or am I still about ME?? Me not wanting to be seen as weird.....
THAT is a beam that needs to be reinforced...I am weird but that's ok or that's a reinforcing wall that HAS to go......???
We are weird aren't we?? And that I make it a BAD thing is the selfish part...We are NOT supposed to be of this world...in it and yet not of it..... How can I be in the world and become OK w/being thought of as weird?? Quit caring what the world / PEOPLE think......HOW.....pray more......OK but I have to DO something about it don't I???
NOPE.....do you believe? Then.... hold unswervingly to the hope we/you/I profess. Go out there and be weird...not judgemental and preachy but weird......say what you believe and TRUST...holding unswervingly to the hope you profess.....just let God be God and do what He does best in the Spirit.....it ain't about YOU.......
Hebrews 11: 1 Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see. 2 This is what the ancients were commended for.... 6And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.
So all this wrestling with you....is OK in fact it is my way of seeking You.....?? And if I don't 'get it', then I can't live it and I so want to live it.....even though I'm scared to do it...I want it so flippin bad!! I want it for everyone.....You are such an amazing God.....this whole idea of You is amazing and exciting and scary and I WANT IT FOR EVERYONE......Soooooo I guess this whole renovation is just going to take time......and just when you think OK we 'gotter done' and you start looking at it PRIDEFULLY.....there it is, this nasty piece of mold or rotten crap that HAS to be gotten rid of and maybe.....it won't be done until I get to heaven and I better just get used to it?? I am the project manager though and I have to choose to stay in the process....that after all is what Free Will is about isn't it?? Isn't it???
Hebrew 11: 13 All these people were still living by faith when they died. They did not receive the things promised; they only saw them and welcomed them from a distance. And they admitted that they were aliens and strangers on earth. 14 People who say such things show that they are looking for a country of their own. 15 If they had been thinking of the country they had left, they would have had opportunity to return. 16 Instead, they were longing for a better country—a heavenly one. Therefore God is not ashamed to be called their God, for he has prepared a city for them.....I am weird here but where You are taking me I won't be!!!!
32 And what more shall I say? I do not have time to tell about Gideon, Barak, Samson, Jephthah, David, Samuel and the prophets, 33 who through faith conquered kingdoms, administered justice, and gained what was promised; who shut the mouths of lions, 34quenched the fury of the flames, and escaped the edge of the sword; whose weakness was turned to strength; and who became powerful in battle and routed foreign armies. 35 Women received back their dead, raised to life again. Others were tortured and refused to be released, so that they might gain a better resurrection. 36 Some faced jeers and flogging, while still others were chained and put in prison. 37 They were stoned; they were sawed in two; they were put to death by the sword. They went about in sheepskins and goatskins, destitute, persecuted and mistreated— 38 the world was not worthy of them. They wandered in deserts and mountains, and in caves and holes in the ground.
39 These were all commended for their faith, yet none of them received what had been promised. 40 God had planned something better for us so that only together with us would they be made perfect.