Thursday, January 26, 2006

Exodus 14-16 ; Acts 2

Piece together these little mysteries
It isn’t hard to see the writing on the wall
Triumph and tragedy,
only God can be Both the builder and the wrecking ball
Wow that song....really touches something in me ......stuck in regrets or pride.....I'm still trying to become unstuck...I wish the icon worked if it did you would see the little turtle arms and legs....just struggling and strugging and what is going to have to happen is someone is going to have to help me /him.......GRACE is the help I need......Grace is what I need to grab onto and right myself, knowing I'm going to end up right back there on my back and YOU won't leave me there........Only God can be Both the builder and the wrecking ball.....You have to be the focus of my life.....I have to be willing to submit the stubbornness of my soul to YOUR GRACE...Your truth......see it and submit to YOUR GRACE......


Ex. 14: 14 The LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still."....oh to claim that verse today.....but seriously what do I need You to fight for me for....UNDERSTANDING....I want so desperately to BE understood that I take your word and manipulate it to what I want....??
The Israelites......a stubborn bunch following and then screaming 'where have you brought us!' ....soooooo I KNOW I am stubborn....AM I FOLLOWING??...this morning crying to my daughters I 'think' I am ....but am I fooling myself??...am I USING YOU to make a sucky life better? and if I am is that sooo wrong........how can I KNOW if I AM following You this time?????
Ex. 14: 15 Then the LORD said to Moses, "Why are you crying out to me? Tell the Israelites to move on....so accept YOUR GRACE and move on......don't get stuck......don't try to figure it out or BE right....MOVE ON......FOLLOW...be still and KNOW that YOU ARE GOD and MOVE.....why am I arguing here??
Ex. 14: 29 But the Israelites went through the sea on dry ground, with a wall of water on their right and on their left. .....OK how scary was that.....a wall of water surrounding them and THEY followed......PROTECTED....probably not feeling a BIT SAFE but they followed........GRACE gets me up and moving.....but my stubborn soul has to submit to YOUR PROTECTION, YOUR being about YOU (Ex. 14:16) and follow.....You are not, no matter how much I want to believe it , going to be ABOUT ME....WOW......that I want it to be about me had to write that really small to admit it ...there I go again getting unsteady and regretful and then GRACE......it's about YOU I believe that... I have to LIVE it...going where it is scary and KNOW THAT........

And then of course MORE BITCHING.....wahhhh there's not enough to eat and grumbling again that 'YOU BROUGHT US OUT HERE TO DIE'.....NO I brought you out here to show MY GLORY (Ex. 14:16) ......trust THAT....TRUST THAT HIS GLORY IS WORTH LIVING FOR.........OK OK that's not it in the words and how dare I take the bible and paraphrase yet.....is that it???? Trust that living FOR YOU is what you/I/we are made for, trust that I am going to screw it up and then trust that YOU will forgive me (grace) don't abuse it but TRUST it....learn it.....come to KNOW YOU for who YOU ARE.....trust that KNOWING YOU is what I AM MADE FOR and then...well then....YOU will take care of everything??????????
And then all of ACTS 2.....seems to be saying to me YES that's it.......what if....what if it's that simple........???? and yet THAT HARD.........?

4 comments:

lex said...

the simpleist of things is by far the hardest to "get". isn't it always this way? we want to make it so much harder so we can do it, earn it or outline it. but He doesn't work like that. i see it evidenced all around us in a relationship's "i'm sorry" or in science's 'division of the atom' or in Christ's 'GRACE.'

the simple things are the ones that stump us huh?

Paula said...

What a wonderful post. God's grace is an ocean and I want to go deep. I'm so thankful He is so patient with me in all my struggling to follow. That God He doesn't mind the times I just lean hard and rest.

So I Go said...

ahhh.. loved the bitching line.

i get caught up in chaos each week and miss some of your posts, but i'm always so eager to settle back in and check on your latest encounter with Scripture.

i just can't help but imagine Jesus embracing you and laughing hard and deep and then walking with you for quite a while, listening, explaining.. smiling.

MaryAnn M said...

why is it that there isnt anything new under the sun? LOL
the Israelites felt it and so do we: 'YOU BROUGHT US OUT HERE TO DIE'.....NO I brought you out here to show MY GLORY

that spoke alot to me today.

Show Me Your Glory Lord...in all these situations...BE GLORIFIED. (and let me hide in Your Son)