Wednesday, January 25, 2006

Realizing this morning that all that was on my heart was $$ and wanting MORE and wanting what I want and and .....and nothing......not one thing....not one measly prayer this morning was about OTHERS or anything at all beside ME.....and then coming and reading all the devotionals and hearing 'what you think about is what you are' .... and seeing / remembering / doesn't surprise YOU and that it surprises me is prideful....and that IF I get stuck here in regrets or pride or ????...
I'm just stuck.....
I have to choose to MOVE out of it.....GRACE.... a stunning surprising and undeserved and yet THERE and I best remember it and MOVE.......and in moving eventually I follow?? To follow means giving up what I want......leave it..... to follow where YOU lead???....
In moving and remembering what being stuck is like....I seek? And in seeking you always end up with Him......and with Him there is GRACE......
So I go home for lunch and this song is on the radio.....His grace is NEW every MORNING.....
Jill Phillips Lyrics:Wrecking Ball
Just when my tears were falling deep enough to drown
Down in the valley of the shadow of a doubt
When I gave up that’s when He came to lift me out and set me high
When I saw it as a gift of matchless worth
I started thinking it was something I deserved
He pulled the rug from underneath without a word and left me dry
Piece together these little mysteries
It isn’t hard to see the writing on the wall
Triumph and tragedy,
only God can be Both the builder and the wrecking ball
He gave them freedom and a fertile promise land
They took for granted their deliverance at hand
Thirty-nine years later they’re still walking through that sand
Wondering why And He builds it up
And He knocks it down Just to build it up even stronger


Judas Hate said...

Thank you for visiting and the compliment.

Hopefully, I will have more for you to enjoy in the future.

And thank you for your kind honesty.

Not all my writing is for everyone, but I try to toss in something from time to time that may appeal to a different audience.

Be well.

Jada's Gigi said...

In seeking Him we are never dissapointed.....Grace upon grace...thank you for your prayers

Hikingalong said...

Your honesty was stunning. That you for letting us all see a little of ourselves in your post and God bless you for being a human who has been forgiven!

Melissa said...

I can't tell you how many times I've been all about me and I come on here and realize what I'm doing...he is truly both the builder and the wrecking ball... and I want to be willing to let Him wreck it up so He can build it up!!!!

Abigail S. said...

Stuck in regrets or pride...
How true of all of us! We get so stuck on ourselves, we don't even realize that we NEED grace! Thankfully, God is so patient! If I was God, I would have given up on me a long time ago! Good thing God is God, and I'm not!