Realizing this morning that all that was on my heart was $$ and wanting MORE and wanting what I want and and .....and nothing......not one thing....not one measly prayer this morning was about OTHERS or anything at all beside ME.....and then coming and reading all the devotionals and hearing 'what you think about is what you are' .... and seeing / remembering / realizing......it doesn't surprise YOU and that it surprises me is prideful....and that IF I get stuck here in regrets or pride or ????...
I'm just stuck.....
I have to choose to MOVE out of it.....GRACE.... a stunning revelation....so surprising and undeserved and yet THERE and I best remember it and MOVE.......and in moving eventually I follow?? To follow means giving up what I want......leave it..... to follow where YOU lead???....
In moving and remembering what being stuck is like....I seek? And in seeking you always end up with Him......and with Him there is GRACE......
So I go home for lunch and this song is on the radio.....His grace is NEW every MORNING.....
Jill Phillips Lyrics:Wrecking Ball
Just when my tears were falling deep enough to drown
Down in the valley of the shadow of a doubt
When I gave up that’s when He came to lift me out and set me high
When I saw it as a gift of matchless worth
I started thinking it was something I deserved
He pulled the rug from underneath without a word and left me dry
Piece together these little mysteries
It isn’t hard to see the writing on the wall
Triumph and tragedy,
only God can be Both the builder and the wrecking ball
He gave them freedom and a fertile promise land
They took for granted their deliverance at hand
Thirty-nine years later they’re still walking through that sand
Wondering why And He builds it up
And He knocks it down Just to build it up even stronger