Wednesday, May 17, 2006

1 Kings 2; 1 Chronicles 29; Psalm 95; 2 Thessalonians 1

Do you wonder if Paul was lonely?? Now I ain't no Paul that's for sure but don't you imagine once you begin to KNOW what it is God wants for you and it is sooooo far from how you have lived your life in the past.......who you gonna talk to but Him?

Tonite is New Community.....a heart of Worship.....Lord I want to be about YOU....
Psalm 95: 6 Come, let us bow down in worship,
let us kneel before the LORD our Maker;
7 for he is our God and we are the people of his pasture, t
he flock under his care. Today, if you hear his voice,
8 do not harden your hearts
as you did at Meribah,
as you did that day at Massah in the desert,
9 where your fathers tested and tried me,
though they had seen what I did.
10 For forty years I was angry with that generation;
I said, "They are a people whose hearts go astray,
and they have not known my ways."
11 So I declared on oath in my anger,"They shall never enter my rest."

Do not harden you hearts........
(do we even KNOW the condition of our hearts??)

And in this I think of BH's argument, not a fear of, he's not afraid but his argument is , his stubborness against a vengeful God.......I can't do anything to make someone believe....but I can pray for them. I can pray for hearts to be softened to His will...pray for a movement of the Spirit guiding hearts toward seeking something bigger than they are, bigger than anyone of us can imagine..... hearts to NOT GET STUCK in ......

2 Thessalonians 1: 8 He will punish those who do not know God and do not obey the gospel of our Lord Jesus. 9 They will be punished with everlasting destruction and shut out from the presence of the Lord and from the majesty of his power 10 on the day he comes to be glorified in his holy people and to be marveled at among all those who have believed. This includes you, because you believed our testimony to you.
11 With this in mind, we constantly pray for you, that our God may count you worthy of his calling, and that by his power he may fulfill every good purpose of yours and every act prompted by your faith. 12 We pray this so that the name of our Lord Jesus may be glorified in you, and you in him, according to the grace of our God and the Lord Jesus Christ.

I don't know....I want.....I NEED to want what You want.....but....
If I lived in YOUR power, in YOUR love, totally captured by the wonder of YOU, of Your Son...... It's just lonely you know.....having something so cool, so amazing, so hard, so irrational, so illogical, so frustratingly simple, so beautiful, so life changing and it's not ours to give away....??
I want BH in heaven ....but I guess until he wants it......
He knows our hearts right.....that's not as scary now as it was....maybe because now I see it or parts of it and have experienced forgiveness for it......What an amazing God you know??
And believe me ....hear me now and believe it later.....
a Seeking Heart HE NEVER DENIES.....

3 comments:

Jada's Gigi said...

I want to reply to your last post but can't I'm at work. This post is hitting me kind of oddly. I am trying to write out my journey for a few friends and I am at the part where no one "gets it" but us (my hubby and I). Strange you should mention it. Its a very lonely place, that was a long time ago but it never really goes away..I'm in another lonely place right now too...He is the only one who "gets me..it...whatever" Lord help us!
Him knowing my heart has never frightend me but its comforting cos He understands where I'm coming from and who I really am...and loves me anyway...:)

Jada's Gigi said...

He will never give you a stone for bread...

Bar Bar A said...

I love what you posted and JG's comments. This is an interesting time for many of us. SEEKING HIM is the ONE THING we need to do.