Friday, November 03, 2006

Job 25; Mark 13 & 14

Can you please share with me what you have been pondering......this journey is meant to be shared....please share with me your ponderings.....or your pain....please


This life You give us to live, full of promise and pain.
I pray to live it focused on You….
Seeking You more than the promise, and in the now instead of or in spite of the pain…
I pray for a heart that never stops yearning for the relief only You can provide
I pray for a heart that softens more and more every day of this life…
I pray for a heart dependent, confident in the God I know….
I pray to live in the dependence, confidence and softness to love those surrounding me who are in pain…..to know I have nothing to offer save a love from the God who saves…..soften me…humble me to LOVE…

Breakfast with my daughter…..what a blessing she is…..what a joy to be in her journey, to be on the journey with her. Conversations are rich as we seek to understand each other….she teaches me sooo much.

My husband…..ooooh that man. Last nite as we entertained people seeking to know Christ…his wisdom and discernment and the excitement we shared when they left……I can learn much from this man of God…..and the softer my heart gets the more I see his wisdom and appreciate his heart!

I have soooo many blessings this morning I THANK YOU for each and every one of them. And I do pray for those around me drowning in dissatisfaction and pain.

Mark 13: 11 Whenever you are arrested and brought to trial, do not worry beforehand about what to say. Just say whatever is given you at the time, for it is not you speaking, but the Holy Spirit.

Same as when the people I love come to me in pain…..listen more than speak and IN the listening…trust that in the LOVE I pray for, YOU will give me the words, the ability to come alongside them in their pain without trying to fix…without preaching at them…….just come alongside and TRUST….and love them.....love them in their pain....

Why would I think I deserve a life without pain or inconvenience…..but I did and I probably on occasion still do. Following Jesus I think entitles me to having it easier??? Seriously….??
The last supper, serving with Jesus and a meal to say ‘good bye’…..even as he reclined with them know he was going to be betrayed….knowing that even those who pledged undying allegiance to him were going to turn away…….Peter thinking he was above denial…and yet the love that motivated the sacrifice…….it’s just scandalous’ like Yancy says… that He would love us that much and yet the pure fact of the matter is HE DOES……

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

Oh, Becky, what a great post. I just got around to reading blogs today and this was the first place I came. Your heart, your passion and love and care just emanates from your words. I love being here. It's weird. Its a blog, a computer screen - but I know the person on the other end. I know she is genuine. I know she really does pray,does care. It floors me.

You know my pondering of late...right now I am just pondering how awesome it is that God knows what and who we need on our journeys. He's blessed my socks off with some awesome men and women that love Him and inspire me.

*sigh* and *Smile*

Danielle said...

This is an impressive post, Becky. You have a genuine heart and I am inspired.

Scandalous? I never thought about it that way before but I like the description...it breathes new meaning into things.

I am pondering my own pain as of late. I seek to refocus. I don't want to complain. I don't want to be selfish. But thank you for asking...for listening and caring.

MaryAnn M said...

being more and more WRECKED by His amazing LOVE...

how deep
how wide

how eternal?

we only get a small peek at it and it overwhelms us!

pain is always a part of life...we press in...His Love is greater.

Jada's Gigi said...

I have found pain to be an amazing teacher...not the kind I embrace eagerly..but a powerful one whose lessons remain...forever...